Hi IDM,

Hey, enough worrying about your daughters if..........all attention on you now, what you're going through and finding ways to make it through, hey??
You're the one who needs the caring/help..........and that's now
I know your faith in doctors is kind of "running out" but maybe an emergency appointment?? Pressing them into seeing the reality for you right now........not taking "No" for an answer, because of course you deserve more than that.
And maybe clinging to/holding onto any spark in the darkness...........you know you have made it through so much before, at times it probably felt like you never would, but you did.
And things did get "better" than they were.
So maybe as well re-evaluating things that might help (even just a little!!) and the things that don't?? And a bit of a "shake up" in your routine, to suit you, and the way you're feeling now. Like maybe some time of work, maybe more time with your family, maybe talking to your wife, or even if you can't talk to much then "just" being with her and allowing her to give you some "comfort"???
And.........just to say it again an emergency appointment??
All this alongside keeping on talking to us of course, because we care/we're here for you!! So any way we can offer you understanding and support with what you're going through.



Alison