I find myself cutting to.... ... Im not sure. My initial inclination is to say that I need to get out my anger at myself. Its sorta like self-punishment. but it feels like the actions are just an extension of my internal feelings. I'm so sick of not cutting for fear of stupid things like what people might think if they notice (I'm not saying that avoiding cutting is bad). It just feels so futile not to cut when I have feelings inside that need to come out. I feel like HATE EXPLODES within me sometimes. I know that sounds crazy . Im actually a timid person. ugh.. I dunno. Im rambling.