Self Loathing is the dome that got you trapped. That is why you were being hunted and feared. Others have to own their own feelings. You do not know that one is really feeling unless you ask. Do not loath yourself when you think you let them down. Some times we can not give what another wants or expects from us. Do not place acceptance by others on yourself. Big Cats are smart and resourceful. You can find a way out of this feeling of self loathing.