thanks for the post pinksoil. great thoughts.

i kinda feel a little more like the lack of coping mechanisms thing you mentioned applies right now. my problem is the degree to which it's kicked in. in the past two weeks it's become an everyday thing - from almost outta no where.

and it hurts physically - once in a while to relieve stress is one thing. but if i keep this up i'm gonna run outta room!! it's like a switch has been thrown - and now i can't stop.

i do feel better mentally than i used to - zoloft has worked great for me over the past several years. but the feelings i'm feeling now....i'm not....i'm not feeling anything! that kinda creeps me out!!

my cat died last week & of course i cried several times. when i picked him up from the vet. looking at his body in a box. burying him. but now that he's out of my sight - i feel very little. that is COMPLETELY NOT me!!!! people at worked asked how my cat was - dead, i said matter of factly. ?????? huh????

my dog just had a seizure tonight - usually i coddle her and comfort her. i did that to some degree tonight....but not like i normally do??

the feeling is just not there. where'd it go?? i've delt with depression forever and i know how i feel then and i know i will get through those bad times....but this is different....it's only been like this for the past two weeks....

take care!