Oh here is that post I wanted to respond to!

I meant to post yesterday and then forgot where it was.......

anyway-- this is very much like how I feel all the time. I just know I'll be forgotten because it has happened many times in my past. I'm convinced I was invisible as a child most times and it also happens in my adult life--

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And if a friend vanishes for a while do you always blame yourself?

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> OH Boy!! do I ever!!

I had an e-pal up and quit writing me-- I thought we were close-- wrote for 2 years! She said she would always be there as she understands how I feel about people leaving--- then---- I wrote her one day-- and she's never written back-- (I waited 2 weeks, tried again-- she never wrote) It triggered me so much so(thought I was a terrible person and that they will leave me) that I'm just now realizing -- silly as this may sound to some-- I got so scared the T. I was seeing was going to do the same-- that I quit him before he could abandon me.... .... guess I made a bit of a mess .

I get so confused in this "mysterious dance" that is called relationships.

Fuzzy-

mandy