I had a crappy week last week. Complete meltdown and feeling like I can't do this anymore. I even contacted another T. about more support or moving T's. The transference is too much sometimes. All I wanted was to talk to my T. but didn't reach out knowing I would see her in a week.

I guess I self regulated pretty well and I got to a better place. An hour before my session I'm nervous and thinking why tell her anything. She's mentioned before that I minimize my feelings. And, I do. I think why do they matter and I know that's from my childhood.

Ugh, I hate this....