Youve gone so far so fast. That might be why you feel shaky? Your t is not there to judge you. You cant do this wrong. Youre just in unfamiliar territory? I keep thinking of that female athlete i read about in the nytimes, i think she used to be an olympic gymnast, then she started training for some kind of ski jumping. Well she hurt herself because she just didnt have the skiing experience even tho she had the gymnastic experience. Thats what it feels like to me here. On the one hand you ARE able to move quickly, on the other you dont have a strong base relationship with your t to help you feel safer? Idk.