thank you all for reading this . I don't think I am looking for another chair . I just want to be understood. although it seems like such a silly thing it was devastating to me . I think it was one of the things that changed how I look at who I am . always told im a spoiled brat , any time the mother felt I was intrusive I was subjected to this .it went on for a long time . because I was acting like a spoiled brat and a baby I was forced to go to school wearing cloths way to young for me . I was very small ( still am ) and although I was 7 I easily fit into cloths made for children much younger then I . like around 4 yrs or so. and had it beat in my head that as long as I was acting like a baby I was to be treated like one and was to wear these cloths to school for all my class mates to see I am still a baby.it was so humiliating to walk in the school dressed like this every day.i never knew what made me so horrible . sometimes I believe I was just born this way just a horribly difficult child .