My heart goes out to you lostfox30. Is there anywhere you can go for free legal advice? I'm afraid I don't know what's in your area. Anyone who does, please respond. You're in difficult circumstances (understatement!) and I have no answers, but I do care, and respect your efforts to get better. I hope you can find some care to help you (with your health as well as other things). You can always come here to get things off your chest. Good luck with ssi.