Hey I forgot to say that I unfriended her (again) last week, I have an email from her from 2 days ago, i haven't read yet, I'm afraid to, I know I'll get sucked back in. It's now my cat's birthday and I feel I need to tell her, I feel I need her (mind you I'm drinking)

I still can't believe he's gone, I'm thinking of everyone but, I'm so close to tears and I never cry. I have some Tokio Hotel cards to put on my door, I have a book to finish reading, my own book to type and a movie I want to watch.

I'm maybe slightly typsy, cos what else is there to do right now? I have a salon appointment tomorrow and I might bring my mam for lunch, I want to do something and she paid the vets bills so it would be a nice thing to do. She loves going for lunch and I know how upset she is too.

Ugh, sorry I'm all me me me. I'll be ok. How are YOU doing? Still daydream free?

I need to think about the "best friend" I really know I'm on my own now, but it's kind of a help to stop relying on others. I have myself so I'm good. Could you learn to think the same? (You always have me too though) I still want to kiss Bill though!!