You are right, you don't deserve it.

Unfortunately, rarely in life does it come down to fair, or even just desserts. Stuff happens, bad stuff, and we are forced to take responsibility and react.

You have a lot on your plate. Too much it sounds like.

In my experience, it is best to dismiss any worries I don't know for fact are a problem. I deal with what I think I can try to change and nothing I else. Other than that, I ask myself what do I need to do for ME right now?

Practice good self care right now, mate. It will help.

Yours,

Killian