Kayolla, I am so sorry you are struggling with depression and trauma. It sounds like you have some major challenges so a therapist and psych doc would be a good addition to the team.
Since I joined PC I have been able to share more and developed more trust. Besides being an active participant in helping oneself at Psych Cental, many people also help support each other by replying to other people's posts. Many people who are actively involved in Psych Central find it helps take them out of their own problems to develop empathy for others. And their problems are more manageable the more they help others.
Some people find the forums give them the compassion and empathy they seek.
http://forums.psychcentral.com
Please feel free to private message me or any of the Community Liaisons by left clicking on the name in blue to the left of their post) for questions or just to share.