My friend was diagnosed last year with ADD but now i suspect she might have BPD simply because the other ADHD friends i have are relatively calmer and not as hostile as her.. It is as if she has more going on than just ADD. I saw something in her that made me think i gotta be good to her cause no one else is even before she told me she had ADD.

She will love me one minute and hate me the next, she has very hostile anger episodes where she will throw anything at you (verbally not physically) and you gotta keep calm otherwise it will only escalate further. She has lot countless friends and boyfriends cause of this.

I feel like i'm never a good enough friend even though she has told me "i have been more of a friend to her than anyone" and that i am her 'life saver'. But recently she has blocked me completely on every social site. It feels like she is testing my patience, loyalty and trust, as if i am gonna be like every other friend she has ever had that left her or stopped talking to her.

When i explain i genuinely care she thinks of every reason why i don't or come up with some excuse to justify it. It feels like she doesn't feel good enough or is suspicious of why i'm being so nice to her. When i had a boyfriend she didn't talk to me as much cause she latched on to a group of friends she adored. However when my relationship ended she still doubted me as i was the one who ended the relationship and thought id end our friendship the same way.

It feels like she is used to being hurt which breaks my heart. I'm pretty sure i love her unconditionally as she is a brilliant friend..... But her moods goodness gracious they are something else. Afghanistan seems more peaceful than being in an argument with this girl. She will be so irrate over the smallest things and i try to solve the situation in the moment whereas she wants to alleviate all her inner frustration.

I assumed it was ADD however i was recently pointed in the direction of BPD which i have been looking in to and it literally sums my friend up. She isn't suicidal (thank god) however she hit rockbottom 5 years ago and had suicidal thoughts which i then became SUPER protective and weary of her making sure she didn't act on it. Since then nothing luckily however her life is spiralling out of control again and i think BPD could be the reason.

She will have outbursts then be so sweet which contradicts eachother leaving a lot of people lost for words and quite frankly fed up of her. It's only a matter of time before she breaks up with her boyfriend and feels low again.

- She has intense friendships and relationships
- always feels she's going to be blamed or is in the wrong
- always tries to sus people out before letting her guard down
- causes unnecessary arguments out of nowhere
- intense emotions of shame, regret, sadness, embarassment, paranoia
- low self esteem
- risk taker BIG time

The list could go on i was wondering could this be BPD and does it affect friendships and relationships?

Claire