....with everything. Nobody gets or cares for me here, in my locale. I'm told to "go talk to a therapist, not me". Everyone looks at me like I'm doing something weird. "There's got to be something wrong with you"...like I need a tumor test.

It's all in your head. So I don't become other people by talking in other languages, wear off gender clothes (but I do), can't remember what happened this morning....I'm just "absentminded like an idiot" which means I'm faking. I wish I was faking so that I can quit and get on with living a normal life.

So alone here.

I think I need to embrace all of us and say "it's all me!" Sounds good, but the others dont care.

What 3 words that brought me back to this world that I've successfully lived in elected denial was "Multiple Personality Disorder" uttered by partner one night while watching a movie....I instantly crashed and it all came real again in an instant, everyone demanding "out".

In a flash, years of intentional self restraint as a whole was obliterated and the denial lifted shining the ugly truth, and I'm right back in the hell hole that I tried to escape.

Can I go back into denial, get everyone working incognito again? They say "no, not this time". It's their time. I can't blame them.

I just want relief! Who doesn't?

I'm not the only one aggravated, everyone's aggravated, frustrated, and ready to say "screw it"....which has dark meanings.

We are sliding into depression, but we do it as a collective. It'll pass, but tonight it just plain sux.