I'm just curious....I went back through your posts when you first joined PC & am wondering just how much of your DV, PTSD & issues with your Dad & all the other things that created your ED in the first place have you actually processed with a T(s).....or have you just swept them under the rug which is why you continue struggling with your ED?
It's obvious from reading your posts that your ED came from your marriage situation in the first place because you it didn't sound like you had an ED problem before you finally got through your marriage & got your divorce from the DV situation you were in.....&
03/03/10 you posted:
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I was married to someone who told me time and time again that I was fat, and I believed him; afterall he loved me. I don't get why I have gone this far now. It has been almost 3 yrs since I left him, and I ate "normally" for the entire time I was with him. I want to get help, just don't know how, where, when, who.
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It might be wise for you to print out some of your past posts so that you can & they can know the real issues behind your ED.
What really happened this time that triggered your not eating again as you have been in recovery for a while.....something had to have happened that triggered you & that would be a very valuable information to go into U of I with.
Interesting because I went through a trauma the last time that triggered my anorexia & after getting out of the medical hospital after several months of in & out through my mother's death & funeral time, they wanted me to go to an ED treatment center again. I called several & told them what had triggered the anorexia......they told me they couldn't help me with PTSD causes of anorexia...the only thing they deal with is body image.....I seriously believed them because that's exactly what the first treatment center I went to tried to cram on me also when I knew there was a whole lot more involved than that & that really wasn't the cause.....but they never worked on the cause so obviously I never recovered from that for years & then I really didn't recover because as soon as another trauma hit, I was right back where I had been before with the anorexia.
The important thing if treatment is going to be successful is to be honest with them & with yourself about what's really going on in your life that's contributing to your anorexia behavior. One of the things that seriously was an issue for me the first time was that I didn't want to live & the anorexia was just a means to that end though it's obvious I didn't succeed & glad I didn't.
It's so easy after we have a huge trigger that gets the behavior started in the first place that even little things will trigger it again & it helps sometimes to go back & look through what initially caused it because there are usually obvious clues for the relapses.....& since you are going for help....it's seriously important that they know what REAL help you need no matter how much difficult work it takes to deal with those issues......they can't be avoided it real healing is truly desired.