So often it seems like the doctors think they know what's best and not even listen to what I have to say. I have SEVERE trust issues and because of that I am also paranoid (not delusional just paranoid). Because of these issues I have had a hard time finding a therapist to talk with that I can trust.

Today I went to a private facility that did an intensive outpatient program (IOP). Even though I told them they were my last hope and I didn't know where else to go to get help they still rejected me for 2 reasons.

Reason #1) I would not give them my wife's info as an emergency contact. They said they would only call her if I was going to kill myself. That's a big reason I don't want them having that info. I don't want her to know and worry.

Reason #2) They wanted me to sign a contract saying I would tell them if I was suicidal & if I were that I would goto an ER. I refuse to go to an ER because all they will do is have me committed to a mental hospital. I have not had good experiences with those so I refuse to ever go back to one again.