Hi Breadfish,

I'd kind of go with the "Is it a matter of perception?" question here. Like is it everything.......and maybe not?? Is it always your fault, or are there some extenuating factors?? Is everything really "ruined"?? Are you overlooking the positive things/achievements that you've accomplished??
And why the thoughts..........what do you think?? Maybe abuse, maybe depression........maybe.......??
But you know even if this thread/replies don't get you past hating yourself right now (we can but try ) just remind yourself that there are lots of people on here who DON'T hate you, DON'T see those qualities in you, who know that you're not worthy of hate

And lastly.........maybe there's nothing in particular...........but have to ask........has anything specific happened to trigger those feelings???
And if so.........if you want to talk about it (or anything!!).........here for you

Alison