I've thought about SS (those ideations again, smile). I really should look into more seriously. I'm seeing my prescribing shrink this week. Doesn't hurt to ask.

Thanks for the words of kindness. You're right -- I've been inert, but I ain't exactly been going to the beach, reading glossy magazines, and chattin' with the girls on the phone. Or even staring blissfully at my naval, glad to be alone and relaxing. It's been a bleak and very painful inertia.

And I have no idea how long this will last. I've had little periods where I got energized throughout this past year, and then it all dissipated, and I wondered where the energy went, and felt even worse than before at the failure to carry out my Big Fat Plans. Same thing coulda happened if I had gotten a job.

And there's zip I can do to get back the lost time. So thanks again for the wisdom. I hope your meds get stabilized soon or you find some other way out.