Breadfish!!
You ARE NOT responsible for THAT!!!
And a little compassion for yourself about last Monday, hey??!!!

With all the feelings (or no feelings???) going through you that day/time, the
last thing you need/deserve is anger pointed at you

And as for the weekend being cancelled, well that was your sisters CHOICE. No-one/nothing
forced her to make that decision.
And now........a little less worrying about
everyone else...........what you've been through/are going through is
much more important!!!
Have you got/do you think you need some more
real help after Monday???
Maybe seeing your T, maybe having your meds/treatment adjusted, maybe talking on here if you think that might help???
Alison