Thanks all. My pdoc put me on abilify to help with the paranoia.. so just gonna have to ride it out. i cant afford IP so I will just tough it out. I live alone (my daughter just moved out 2 weeks ago) and I find that having the house clean (I am OCD when it comes to a clean house) and having peace and quiet it keeps me calm. I sometimes wish i could just stay home and not have to deal with the real world. For now... I will try hard to pull myself back together.

Thanks for the kind words they mean a lot.