I apologize if this is graphic...... So don't read further if you think you may be offended or upset
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I don't know where else to post this and it might be considered a little graphic or what I'm not sure...
But anyways to get to the point I was talking online to this guy and he said you know since we're closeby why don't we get together and watch a movie. So I agreed and he came over and we were watching a movie sitting on the couch and I was drinking a little so maybe I was a little more relaxed than I am usually but not to blame that, I did what I did and have to deal with it. He said he'd like it if I massaged his legs, so I did he was laying on the couch with his legs in my lap which now I see as maybe a bit inappropriate in retrospect but anyway and it went from that to rubbing his torso to rubbing his manhood-- wasn't sure what I can say if it will be edited-- but yea and so he stayed after he was done for a while and then gave me a hug said thanks for having him over and left. I guess I set myself up like I'm oddly glad that he enjoyed himself and liked his reaction or noises of pleasure but when it came to me I didn't really get anything out of it.... My question is this is this wrong? Does doing something like this make me a ***** or something? Is there something wrong with me? Like I've been kind of building up to these sexual things for a while now that I think about it. I am supposed to have someone over tomorrow who I trust because I've talked to him about a lot of things and he says he's wanting more of a serious relationship and stuff-- like he said he wants a girlfriend I guess, you know and I told him what I thought and was upfront and honest with him. So I do trust him maybe cause he said he wanted to really take things slow and what not and he seems like a genuinely nice guy... I had plans with him before I even talked to this guy tonight.... Is that wrong that this happened? Is this something I need to disclose to this guy because we agreed to see if things got serious or something? Any answers or attempts at one are appreciated and helpful. Thanks.