I've been depressed for almost 8 years. I gave up on art a couple of years ago because I was too depressed. Well, it actually started a bit before that in escalation, but 2 years ago was definitely my threshold. I lost interest in everything, including art. I still enjoy it, and still see stuff from my favorite artists, I just don't have the energy to motivate myself. Whenever I get that sudden rare inspiration to draw, it never lasts long, and I give up before I've barely started. Since It's been so long since I've drawn, so I'm not as good, and that doesn't help much with my self esteem and motivation. The only time I would catch myself drawing was in a really boring class lectures, I would only sketch a bit, and never completed any WIP's. I want to get back into it, but at the same time, I don't care about if I do anymore. As much as I am quite indifferent to drawing now, there's still a part of me that clings to it. Art was the only "passion" I had in life, my only other hobby being Motion Graphics, but that hobby is long gone too. Art was my reason to keep going, to become a great artist and make loads of stories.
I refuse to go the the doctor and get any medication for reasons that'll take too long to explain, and it's not like I can tell someone about it since I have Schizoid PD. I was wondering if you guys have any suggestions..? I've always been bored with life, but now it just feels so much more monotonous. I'm quite hopeless with my depression, but I feel like having art back in my life will at least make my mine a bit better.