Re: This Messaged

Stacy my numbered 2 friend has translated this for me because my brain is different and locked up by autism. Just please understand that if I could talk like the rest of you I would. It is very important for me to explain this my friends and have you understand.

I want to explain something to my friends. There are times when my brain works differently and I end up saying words I don't intend to say. I would rather say something that comes out differently than be unsure of the right thing to say. My friends don't always understand this difference. I am simply trying to talk to my friends at times when I say things I don't intend sometimes because my brain is unable to think of the correct words I want to say. So, I end up just saying sorry over and over instead of saying nothing. Sorry is not what I necessarily mean but it all my brain can come up with because it is so unsure of what to say to express my thoughts. I want to be able to speak with everyone in chat and have them understand me and not just have to say sorry over and over when people don't understand and my brain doesnt know what to say. I get confused and unsure of just what to say.

I love my friends and it causes me alot of anxiety when I am unable to talk to them so that they understand. I don't want them to reject me for being different like my mother did and push me away. You are my only friends and you mean so much to me. I love you always.