Hi LA-ML, sorry you are living in an abusive environment with many emotional triggers. The behaviors you describe often require extended hospital stays. Too bad the hospital did not keep her longer.

It is often good to have a professional therapist to work with for stabilizing your condition. It can be an influence in our lives that affects our relationships later in life.
You are also a person that has gone through difficult situations and just needs compassionate people like you will find on Psych Central. I, or any of the community liaisons would be glad to private message you as well.

Thanks for sharing your story. Each of us is uniquely prepared by life for a lifetime that only we can live. No matter how bad the history we have gone through, there can be a meaningful life waiting for us to discover.