He is just not understanding the illness. The desire to commit suicide is symptom of the illness. It isn't a measure of your love. Statements like that just ramp up the guilt even more and trigger more of the episode and create a struggling clinging energy in you.


https://bipolarfirst.wordpress.com/2...uicide-stigma/

I am sure you love your babies and your husband. I feel sad for him that this symptom of your illness makes him feel unloved

sad

and sad for you.