You know, I didn't realize it at the time when my depression was so bad that it was my bad marriage because I had lost my career & everyone was pointing at that for being my problem.....but in reality, it was my bad marriage. While I had my career, I hid out in that, but when that was over (aerospace crashed in California), & I couldn't get another job, I ended up trapped in the bad marriage & ended up attempting suicide many times to try I get out.......glad I wasn't successful in reality because I was finally able to leave though it was 13 years later & now I own my own farm 2100 miles away. Moved to a place where I didn't know anyone & it was a good starting over place for me.......financial issues have caused the divorce to take longer than hoped for....had to resolve the issue with the IRS first....but the freedom away from the hell I was living in was the best thing EVER for my depression & for my anorexia.