Yes, my cycle is usually anger, paranoia, and then more anger. I feel badly about the anger almost immediately but the paranoia sort of lingers for a while and I start to rant about all sorts of unfairness. I'm in my "paranoia" stage right now, feeling like nothing will work out for me because of something out there that's working against me. Today, I needed to be somewhere at 12:30, got lost, got stuck in massive traffic, then got angry at the world.
Of course, I arrived at 12:29 and it all worked out.....as it usually does. But I forget that it either all works out or it doesn't matter in the end. Unfortunately, whoever is with me at the time usually receives the brunt of the anger.
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