My mom is moving to a state very far away from where I live. We do not have a good relationship. I don't know how I feel about this. The only family I have is my dad and my sister in my state, and even though my estranged mom lived one hour away I still knew that if anything drastic happened in the future I could go stay with her, no matter how horrible our relationship was. She didn't even tell me she was moving until this morning - she already bought the house, sold her house and is moving in 1 week. This just goes to show you how seldom she talks to me unless she absolutely has to. I'm 23 so I'm an adult and I guess it shouldn't matter if my mom moves to another state, but it just feels weird to me. The fact that she knew about it for months but didn't tell me makes me feel weird too. Almost like she was going to move and just not tell me at all. I feel like she's moving so far away because she doesn't want me to ever rely on her. I know that's not the main reason, but I do think there's an aspect to it. She told me today that she retired, and apparently she's been retired for 1 month, and she didn't tell me that either until last minute. I didn't even know she was retiring.

I dunno. I just don't know why she treats me like this. I can't explain it. It's painful. I'm left feeling a little more deserted. At first I didn't care, when she was telling me about it over the phone I said, "Oh cool! That sounds fun, wow great." but now I just feel more alone without much family. I didn't visit her when she lived an hour away so I'm not sure why I feel weird about this.