(1) You were told that you MAY have MILD adhd- not a confirmation of the diagnosis.

(2) A Councillor told you you have ADHD?

Also you talk about various traumas. To me it is not clear what you may or may not have, and I am not sure how you can be clear, but you certainly may need help with the traumatic experiences.

You should also definitely talk to a professional to is qualified to tell you whether or not you have ADHD, but only a qualified doctor can prescribe meds.

If you do have ADHD you should likely be on meds (if its pronounced) but it does seem you may have trauma related issues also.

You certainly do not deserve to feel ashamed of yourself, whatever the case.