I did things for guys to make them happy. I have zero happy memories or feelings about it. Girls/woman are trained to make a mate happy. But we aren't trained to pick a mate we want to be with. When your really in love, you will feel it totally, and nothing will be yucky. This guy isn't really into how you feel, cause he wants you to feel the way he wants you to feel. You need to be with somebody who wants to know what you REALLY feel like. Dump him. Your heart is screaming to your head that you don't really like this guy, and you feel like you don't want to do these things. Don't. Listen to yourself. Be your own best friend, don't fight your feelings. Be You!