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dalila · Jul 12, 2007, 04:53 AM

<font color="green">First my computer took a huge hit when a tree fell on the lines so i have not been able to be online. I finally got my laptop from my dh but it is not as protected as the PC and I find it a bit difficult to type on. So I had not seen all the wonderful replies.

I have seen her since I posted and I was prepared to 'fess up' but she sees my dd as well as me and we went right into some of my issues that dd has been triggering. ie my mother hunger is as deep as hers but I am in a mourning stage as I know mother was not what she should have been and dd still dreams that her birth mother is going to change. I worked so hard that I forgot about the palm pilot and printout until I got into the car to go home. yikes

I had printed out a map with her address and phone # from the computer folded it up and tucked it into the case with my palm pilot. I lost it some time after that. I had to replace the palm as I still haven't found it. Once I found someone's planner and ended up calling several of the people in it to try and find the owner. Didn't work but still i made the effort and i could see someone doing the same with this. After all, I have printed out maps like this when I was going to visit a friend....

As for the drive by, I felt so awful afterwards I will not be tempted to try that again! I kept the map cos I found it comforting to know where she lives - she has given me her home number for emergency use. She is aware that I do a lot on the computer and knows I could look her up easily but we never talked about that. We tend to keep things as professional as we can - to the point I always call her Dr. R never by her first name. It just seems we hit it off right away and if she was not my therapist I believe we could have been friends and may be friends in the future, for now I need the therapeutic relationship and she seems to find it rewarding to work with me.

I have two weeks to figure out how to broach the subject with her. She seems to like to give me homework and i am struggling with it as usual. </font>