Maybe I should post this in the depression forum... I dunno. Sorry if you think this is in the wrong place.

Last night for the first time in months at least, I had a great dream. I get them every so often -- the kind of dream where you get exactly what you want. I don't know what others see in this kind of dream but for me it's always romantic love. Pathetic for a guy, I know. Just one girl -- not a "perfect" person by any means, but one who is a bit odd like me, who shares my unpopular beliefs and accepts me for who I am. Someone who can be as obsessed with me as I'd be with her. A best friend and a lover, the only person I'd ever need. Pretty simple, right? Last night I lived it vividly for just a little while. It was wonderful.

I hate waking from those dreams; it's even worse than waking from a nightmare. After a nightmare I'm relieved to be awake and to know that it was all not real. But waking from the best dreams makes me incredibly depressed. I felt a stabbing pain in my heart, and within minutes I genuinely MISSED that cute, quirky, nameless girl. I spent the whole day in a daze, always thinking back on the dream and wishing I could get back to it -- at any cost. Reality is just so disappointing.

Is it normal to wish you'd never wake up after a dream like this? I wish I could just die and meet oblivion instead of waking to this dreary, cruel world. I'd give anything to live in that dreamworld forever. But I know that the dream is gone now and I'll probably be starting on another long chain of nightmares soon; pleasant dreams are rare for me, even though I dream almost every night.

Just thought I'd share. Does anyone else feel like this? Also, if it's not too personal, I'd like to know: what's your "best" dream?