I don't really know what I should do. It's taken almost 2 years to trust my T but Im starting to think it's not worth it. I just end up feeling hurt and abandoned as often as I feel supported or understood. I know it's my problem. I don't know how to rely on someone but then not feel intense overwhelming feelings when their not there. It's too painful. My solution is to run and stay alone. My t said it's healthy to rely on him but I don't think he gets how bad it feels when he cancels a session or is out of touch. Any suggestions, advice, experiences are welcome. I'm at a loss.