Hello

and welcome to Psych Central pfireman!!! It's nice to meet you. You have joined a community of warm and caring members who will want to offer you support and advice. Yours is welcome as well.
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I'm sorry for your struggles.

It is illegal!!!!! If your gut instinct tells you this is not what you want for yourself then I think you already know what you need to do. Look ahead a few years and you'll see it's going to be a struggle between her and her drug and you. The drug usually wins without some type of professional help and then in some cases it wins in spite of said help. She doesn't sound like she wants to change. You'll find we have a safe and supportive community. I'm glad you've joined us.
I look forward to seeing you around!!!