It actually tested as not that bad. I imagine I'll either go on more cogentin or get something like bacolofen Monday when I call. I'm on selegeline at a higher concentration than a Parkinson's patient would get it so that should help. The 5 mg of valium nearly cleared it completely in one dose but I've not been able to get 5 mg in since. I took 2.5 tonight and it's helping a tiny bit but there's still a lot of tightness.

If she can't give me something else then I'm going to ask to decrease my Seroquel now. That's risky but this hurts.

I'm also going to try to squeak out money for a massage from my budget. This is a 5 week between SSDI checks month which is always tough but I want to play with things and see. I have no idea if it will help but it can't make it worse. I hate being touched generally but for this cause I'll put the PTSD aside for an hour.

When she tested me there wasn't any concern that it would turn into TD because it just wasn't that bad. I'd broken up the really bad with valium and PRN klonopin and I didn't pass the test completely but I didn't fail badly either. IT was something to watch. Then my dose increased and it's repeating the last time; neck, shoulders and arms hurt. If it is like before it will spread to my legs and feet in the next few days if the valium doesn't kick it.

I know my dr will help. I could email her tonight and might get an answer but I hate doing that when she is off for a weekend. So I'll wait for tomorrow night and then call and leave a message that I have an urgent email for her. I think she's trying to not add too many drugs since I'm on so many psych drugs already and the goal is to reduce the number. There is a lot of room to go up on the cogentin which has helped with movement disorders in the past. TOo much of it has its' own side effects though, some of which I was fighting when I was on more Seroquel before starting loxapine. I just want to be ok on loxapine; I don't want to give up on it. I've lost weight! It works fast! It isn't really sedating except the first few days after an increase! After Seroquel for 8 years this is all huge.

The valium at least is finally making me sleepy I think. Now I need everything to wear off by mid-morning/early afternoon. It's too complicated.

I think my pdoc thought that if I could control it before the dose increase this way that it wouldn't get worse with the increase and I'd be ok. I don't know if it is worse or my tolerance is lower but I really want to be done with this.

Just one more day.......