Thanks for your comments! They are much appreciated.

I too became sedentary from the combination of C-PTSD, depression, unemployment and arthritis. I am currently working hard to eat less and lose weight. It is so difficult. I continue to spend too much time on the computer but also have been working hard to turn it off and do other things. Sadly, I currently cannot exercise (other than walking) as I am recovering from heart bypass surgery. Since the surgery, I have been working on changing my diet. Less bread and potatoes (still working on less pasta) and more nuts (especially for dessert and snacks). I have changed the brand of margarine that I buy and added more leafy green veggies to my diet. I'm trying to eat more protein, especially chicken.

I continue to have C-PTSD thoughts / attacks numerous times daily. I now have a one-third glass of red wine to stop them otherwise they take over and keep repeating for hours. During these attacks, my chest / heart muscles tighten, my breathing gets shallow and I get burning sensations down my arms. They are very unsafe. Further, when it starts it just snowballs and the thoughts get stronger. For some reason, a little red wine calms me (white wine just makes me intoxicated) so I've been turning to that. I don't imbibe enough to get drunk and I don't drive. So far, therapy has not been able to help control these thoughts.

My entire life has been one of encountering abuse of some sort. I know that my parents did a poor job of preparing me for the world - they did not want me to develop so that I would grow up and take care of them when I was an adult. Their lack of nurturing was irreversibly damaging. On my own, I was not able to raise myself because I did not have good interpersonal skills. Years of therapy really did not help as many Ts did not recognize the real issues nor the development of C-PTSD. In fact, some contributed to the development of C-PTSD. So far, the advice from my current T has not been very helpful in resolving issues. At best, they may help deal with them but I have so many issues that it's not possible to deal well with all of them; I just continue to get emotionally overwhelmed on nearly a daily basis. I've resigned myself to being alone for all my life.