Hi,

how are you bookiebook?

I am always fascinated with the idea that people read books as i find them so incredibly boring. I will listen to an audiobook, i just listened to crime and punishement the other day(s) and enjoyed it quite a lot. It's laziness i am sure, there is nothing wrong with reading, i rather admire it i suppose.

Sorry to hear about your issues. (see i am a compulsive liar too!) (that's a joke)

I am really interested in your post. What are they types of things you lie about? Do you really lie more than the average teenager?

Why does your family think you have no conscience? Are these exaggerations or things they say in the heat of arguments? Do you feel like you are lacking a conscience?

You mention you have low self-esteem. Is it possible you aren't as bad as people tell you but because you have low self-esteem you are too easily willing to believe these bad things about yourself?

Sorry if i am asking too many questions. You seem like a rather thoughtful person and i wouldn't mind listening to more of your thoughts.

That's my advice really. Keep working on working it out in your head. Find help where you can get it and don't bottle things up too much.