I guess I don't see why SI is necessarily such a bad thing. No, it's certainly not the best coping mechanism, but it IS a way to cope. I haven't been doing it very long, but it sure seems to help reduce my tension and I function much better because I'm not walking around in such a funk. I guess if I can feel the pain on my body, I don't walk around all day feeling it in my heart?? And I'm not self conscious b/c I use my scalp, so I never have to worry about anyone seeing - even my husband. So what's so wrong with this?