Thank you Soidhonia. I am really fed up with a lot of things. T has been a lot of crisis management in the past - but know it seems like we are getting back to the original reason I went. He seems to ask how I feel about this or that or what are you thinking. I think that is why I am so annoyed with him. I don't ever answer - I always change the subject or say I don't know. I read the posts here and I so want everyone has with their T and yet I can't seem to go there with my T. I will stay - I need T and I know that but I just don't know how to proceed. I mean if I can't move forward then what is the point? A couple of weeks ago he made the point to tell me that in that session we just started to look at a tiny bit of what is under the tip of the iceberg and I don't know if I can do it. Last T was different we talked about alot of different things - very light and very surface - maybe he thought that because the week before was so difficult for me that is what I needed. I don't know. I am very very tangled up and don't know who to talk with.

Anyhow thank you so much for replying. I appreciate it.