Well, it's been 4 months since my first post here. For a few days it seemed
like it was ok but the situation's very bad again. My mother has been threatening
me that if I keep acting like this (not communicating), she'll make my life a living hell (which is a was of saying it's hurting her, I am sure about that).

But the one thing I can't understand is WHY. This has been driving me crazy. Why do I feel crappy every Friday knowing I'll have to spend the weekend with my family? I always feel like I'd prefer spending the weekend at work, even when I'm exhausted. I feel like it'd be better than being with them.

Why do I feel FREE on Mondays knowing I'll just be at work all the time without my family? Why don't I ever miss them? Where should I look for the answer? I don't know anyone with a problem like this. It's really been driving me crazy and I don't wanna deal with it anymore. It's like I don't wanna be close to them. Trying to talk to them makes me feel weird.
THIS SHOULDN'T BE SO HARD! Then why is it? They have never done anything to hurt me, as far as I know. Could it be that I'm bearing some blame/reproach against them without knowing it?

If I look back on when I was 19, 20, on and off this has been going on for years. I have no idea what to do.