Thank you for all the kind words and hugs, it is tough. I decided to send an email with how I felt, how important they are to me and some of my deepest feelings. That was about a week ago and I just don't know. They were quiet the day after I sent it so I thought maybe I made a mistake and then there has been alot of talking/texting after that but never mentioned it. I feel like I opened up and put myself out there and it is scary especially when I feel ignored. I guess I just needed to know it was ok to tell them all those things, maybe the texting like we used to means it is.
I understand the the depression impact how they think and feeling anything is tough and I just wanted them to know I care but I do not know what else to do. I just feel confused.