Elin95, yeah me and my friend are ok again now. We did have another fight but it's ok now. I can't talk to my mam about it, I wasnt able to talk to anyone when we fell out over my feelings for her and everything got messed up, because she's a girl, so I couldn't tell my mam. But I just realised, my friend doesn't seem able to let me go either. Even when I'm horrible to her, she still always wants me as a friend. I don't know why I keep fighting it, cos I always come back too, it's just the thought of depending on someone that I don't like. I can't figure out why she would want me as a friend either.

Anyway, yes I have tried to get over Bill. It didn't work obviously! But really it's ok cos he just makes me feel happy. I've tried to "make myself get over other people before too, it's hard alright. I usually only get over people by finding someone else to obsess over, transferring my affections, which doesn't really solve the problem, just switches it to someone else. And they never want me either.

You know why I think I like Bill so much? Cos he's on the other side of the world, I don't have to actually put up with him, I can just look at him. Lol I sound so mean, but, well I am mean!