hello EV, my experience has been that my mind has out of fear of maybe not having suffered enought to warrant T, tried to create events. Because I had no feelings consious I did not believe myself. My mind tried to fill in the gaps with pictures.

I've found that some of the pictures in my mind weren't exactly as my mind has created but when I finally hit on the feelings to events that did happen, it was awful and it no longer mattered who believed me or not because my feelings were the evidence that I had suffered truama in some instance.

I keep forgetting that because I'm an adult now and can think about things easier and more logical, as a child I couldnt do any of this. What may not seem so vital now was to a child.

Just talk about the memorys be they perfect memorys or just metaphors for what you suffered. Its the feelings that hold the true memorys.

Once they kick in the pictures take a back seat, once you've felt your feelings, the true ones, not the ones we try and guess with, you will know your truth, no matter what that truth is.

Allow yourself its own way of coping. If it has to try and work things out first mentally and that may not always be 100% spot on, know that your feelings will eventually correct any errors.

Trying to mentally remember is a ploy to avoid the real feelings, kinda like if I create something awful then it won't be half as bad as what may have actually happened. Believe me our own trauma's are bad enought.

Be gentle with yourelf and just let yourself unravel in your own time, so what if some of what you thought isn't correct, its covering for the real stuff!