I found I felt fake until I begun to feel my feelings. With those split off from my everday awareness, I felt on awaking that I was hiding something awful from everyone, from me. It was like I was living a secret life except even I didnt know what the secret was.

I felt overshadowed by something all the time, felt like there was something horrid lurking in me somewhere.

Now I am begining to experience my emotions, I am learning I am real. More of me wakes up in the morning.