I finally feel like I can believe that sentence now. After all the things I've had to deal with in my life, I finally feel like I can tackle anything life throws at me. I think most of it has to do with finally having someone who really believes in me, my wonderful fiance. If it weren't for him, I don't think I'd be anywhere close to where I am now.

In my lifetime (I'm 22), I've been hospitalized twice for suicide attempts, and I had tried 3 other times that no one found out about. I felt like I wasn't meant to be alive since I was 12 up until the end of last year. I was constantly in emotional pain, I could feel the aching in my chest every day. But somehow, that's gone away in the past 8 months.

I don't want to say that my fiance saved me, but I think he kind of did. He's made me aware of a part of myself that I didn't even know existed until not, a part that believes that everything is going to work out for the best, whatever that might mean. I'm not afraid to wake up in the morning anymore. I'm not afraid of myself anymore, I used to think I would hurt all the people close to me somehow. But I'm not now.

I hope that I can always remember how I feel right now. That this will always matter this much to me. And I hope that everyone else out there can find their peace in some way, as I have.