I think I may have complex PTSD.

I was diagnosed with PTSD -- my trauma started when I was about 3 years old. Probably earlier as the home I lived in growing up was utterly filthy and there was a lot of neglect. I was abused by four different men from the ages of 3-11. Then was in an abusive/controlling marriage. First man I dated after getting out assaulted me...it's like it just keeps coming...over and over...

It's such a struggle...I feel so alone...so different. I've never "fit" anywhere. Like I was born defective somehow. It's so difficult to find hope.