Thank you all for your advice. And I was pretty upset while writing this post, so please excuse all the typos xD He and I have discussed his insecurity issues several times. I believe they're so deeply embedded that no matter how I try to reassure him, they will always remain. And his temper issues don't seem to be improving...practically everything gets turned into a spat even if it's minor. I have suggested couple's counseling, but our schedules were so conflicting before we moved that it didn't seem feasible. He says he wants to work through his issues with me by his side to support him...but with no changes in behavior it seems as though he wants to have his cake and eat it, too. Annnddd plot twist, he's getting deployed in less than two weeks :\ We haven't even been here long enough to establish ourselves and I have not had any luck with finding a job thus far (it's merely been a week). So, basically, I feel compelled to go home with my family. My brother is about to have a baby and I was going to fly home for that anyways. It sucks that I came all the way out here just to turn around and drive 3 days back, but I don't know what I'd do without my family's support in this situation.

I don't know guys...obviously I'm going to have a lot of time to think while he's gone. This is gonna hurt >_< Marriage isn't even crossing my mind, considering all the issues we have. I honestly feel as though I can't relax; he can turn at any second. There are two distinct sides to him...he is so inconsistent. Also, it feels as though there's a wall between us. He's so afraid I'm going to betray him and I'm so afraid that he's going to act like a jerk that we can't openly express our love for each other.

I know the answer seems obvious; it's just so hard. Especially after moving all this way.