J'smom:

Look, none of us can be there, to know for sure if you're hallucinating or not. And unfortunately, if you ARE having hallucinations, well, you won't think that you are. Because you will think that it's normal and real.

That's why all that any of us can do is encourage you to take your meds, to not self-medication, and to talk to your doctor. While there are plenty of professionals who are abusive.... having that vast combination by more than one person is realllllly slim.

Plus, the things that they've told you to do? Are very bizarre. The fact that you acted on what they told you to do... is also a bit odd.

Put all of that together..... and the most logical conclusion to an outsider is that you are having hallucinations.

No one sees a doctor "all of the time"... that's sort of dodging the question. How frequently do you see your pdoc, and when was the last time that you saw him/her?