>>One of the strangest things about this noise anxiety is that I can get extremely lonely with total quiet! Yet I crave it! It is such a paradox and one I still cannot understand!

I really think you are doing the right thing by seeking extra help to get you through this. It can be very frightening and disconcerting indeed!

Does your husband support you? Have you been able to talk this through with him? If so, lean on him and let him provide comfort when you need it! (Easier said than done though, I know!)>>

That is so odd that you say that I totally feel like that--when its quiet I cannot stand it so I put on a fan or background noise, usually TV, or I call someone. And thats the thing (I don't know if I mentioned this) I moved from the city to the country and I sometimes crave going to the city to shop or whatever, just to be in the city is like 'relaxing' even though there is a ton of noises all combined into one.

My husband is very supportive, he gets plenty of calls at work with me crying on the other end, but then at the end of our conversation I feel much better.