its not bad to not want a relationship with men....i partly think though that its a defense mechanism somewhere in your system....what about just very relaxed friendships with a few men? Make sure they know all you want are friendships....and dont think of this as a relationship...think of it as just expanding your friendships? why not try that....and go from there....but i must admit...you dont need to be in a relationship, or need a man, to be happy...if your content within yourself....dont feel you need to jump into a relationship....be happy with your individualism ....i know you are strong and independent....be proud.....we are all proud of you here....good luck
love, inny